So confused!

WARNING: This is me venting because I don't want to vent at people and make them sad!

Dear ______,
Why is it that every time we hang out together it's all cool, until another person enters the room? Then you feel like you have to make negative comments at me acting like you're joking. But you're not. It wasn't funny even the first time you did it. You pretend like you are one of the boys, but you don't have any of their honesty. If you have a problem with me why don't you just say so? Why is it so hard for you? This is really hurtful and I'm tired of it.

Also, every time I mention something I enjoy you automatically have to act like you've been there done that. If you like it too, why don't you just say it? It won't kill you. It feels like you try so hard to act like the intellectual superior of anyone close to you that you forget to act like a friend. This is only my veiwpoint. I know I wasn't easy to be around. I have a lot of scars, a lot of shadows. I'm getting better though, and each day is an amazing victory. I would love to be able to share it with you. If you don't want to, if you find me to difficult to be around, just say it! I won't respect you any less. If anything, I'll respect you more for your honesty to me and to your self.

See ya around chica!